I’ve been so tentative to take a step forward as an artist because I haven’t found my 'niche'.
Who am I? Good question. I have no idea, I’m still trying to figure that out. I’ve spent the last year or so trying to analyse what kind of artist I am, and what I represent. It has been incredibly deep and depressing to think about and I am no closer to resolution now, then when I initially decided to announce my artistic “rebirth”.
The only way I can answer that honestly, is to state simply… I am me. I have discovered that I like who I am (most days), even if I’m unable to place a label on myself. I’m not interested in fixing my flaws, nor viewing them as such, but rather to learn more about the things that affect and influence my world.
Sometimes I feel so bombarded with messages that I need to “improve” on who I am, because who I am isn’t good enough. It is a message that seems to be drilled into everyone relentlessly by the media, obviously in an effort to increase product sales or to prey upon that weakness increasing entertainment ratings. It’s all consuming and overwhelming.
I’ve reached the crux where I’m saying “fuck it”, I’m done. It’s time to move on. There are so many things out there that I want to learn about and I feel like I’m wasting my time trying to work on my social skills, dealing with my emotions as convention tells me I should, or evaluating & reevaluating my approach to difficult situations to make them comfortable.
I’ve been so tentative to take a step forward as an artist because I haven’t found my “niche”. I enjoy a variety of things and it’s difficult to categorize them in such a way to be successful as an artist, or so I’m told.
Anyhow, I have resolved to stop soul searching and just start. So to some, this site may feel disjointed which (with all truthfulness) reflects my thought process. My approach is to treat this as my journal, documenting my artistic journey and to do my best at presenting it with all the elegance and sincerity that i can.